Life Goes On

Its already March..Chinese New Year is over and so is my school 100 years celebration..I really miss good old times wif my cousins and frens...its been a great year though..everything went the way it was planned..my cous,eric came back from Norway safely..we had a great time..in the club,gym,basketball..but unfortunately on the third day of new year..I had a nasty fall...my elbow had 6 stitches,the injuries on legs,hands,hips luckily are only superficial wounds..the only thing I did after the fall was pray..this was the 1st time i got admitted in the hospital and i feel great..though I was kinda shocked after the fall..cause ive never been in an accident..or been brought in an ambulance..it was a great experience though..but something that i really hoped would actually happen became reality..there was this girl..who ive been eyeing for quite some time..and i think that i really do like her..but as usual i do not have the guts to confront her whatsoever..let me tell you about myself..ive been studying all my life...never been able to socialise with anyone..and rarely been out with my frens..im always timid of doing things and afraid of people criticising me ive got a few friends since standard 1 and I take them as my best frens..but i don think they on the other hand take me as their best friend..its really pathetic to be me..i cant even talk properly in front of people and im in the debate team and i am unable to click with my frens tat make them hate me..i always think highly of myself and proud of my capability but i finally realised that life is more tough than what you think it is...and im not goodlooking or anything..that is why i lose confidence when talking to people..well continuing on..this girl sms me when i was in hospital..and i was overjoyed when she said that she was sad i was admitted..but she actually already has a boyfriend..you may think its too early for people at my age to get into a relationship but i really hope that there is someone im comfortable with who can actually listen to me...