Church:Somewhere To Convey Your Feelings

What is a church?Why do we go?Well,Church is a place to worship God and ask for forgiveness. Nevertheless,many people especially youths choose to go church not for the purpose of worshipping god but to socialise or look for pretty chicks..Its actually nothing wrong because I believe the house of God is able to change who we are and bring out the holiness in out hearts.. I had jus finished a youth service tonight and during the service,I felt guilty because I know that I have commited a lot of sins and I dont deserve to be here..Guilt is like a burden that clamps your feet so that your life will always be the same,unmoving,unchanging and full of sorrow and pain.. That is why we have to ask for forgiveness in church and be free of your guilt,to continue to move on in a new lease of life..But what problems I encounter is the urge to do something...when I know its wrong to do so..Ill still do it no matter what..and that sucks...I wouldnt want to purposely do something that is wrong or may hurt someone but I cant seem to control myself..the temptation,the urge really frustrates me..everytime Ill ask for forgiveness and promise not to do it again..it seems impossible for me to keep my promise..what I say I always meant it at that specific time and place only but when its all over,I tend to go back to my usual self..I say I want to change but it never seems to happen..As Pastor Rudy prayed for us,I was hoping to feel something,to feel lightheaded,worries all washed away into the river of righteousness and forgetfullness but I dont think Ive achieved that...mayb I should continue to attend youth services more regularly and trust in the lord more..Lord is my Saviour and Ill always believe so forever